Hello, everyone. It has been a long time since I've last written here. Well, to bring you back up to speed, school has been great lately. Everything is being taken care of. I'm fine. Now then, back to business.
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I have to ask, people with healthy relationships, how do you do it? How are you guys able to form and sustain such a deep and simple thing such as friendships? Seriously. How do you do it? Do you have a superpower where you can make one in the blink of an eye? I always see people basking in on playful discussion with their friends and family wherever I go and I sort of end up feeling rather jealous of them. Jealousy with a pinch of anger should be the best way to put it for me. I've always seen it throughout my life.
I've seen it in elementary school.
I've seen it in middle school.
I've seen it in high school.
And I'm seeing it in college right now.
People starting out as strangers in the beginning of every school year only to become the best of friends by its conclusion is a situation that I've always seen before my eyes. How do they do it?
Honestly, how do they do it!?
It's astonishing.
It's jaw-dropping.
It's unbelievable.
It's irrational.
It's annoying.
It's fucking stupid.
Why can't I do that? If something that simple can be executed by many others, why I can't do the same? Do I lack something? I believe--no, I know that I lack something. What that thing is I don't know, but what I do know is that this has been prevalent with me for a while now. Now don't get me wrong, reader. I've had friendships before, but I just disconnected myself from them for personal reasons. It's not like I'm completely foreign to the concept of friendships. I've experienced them, so I know what I'm talking about. It's just that I'm wondering if it's an obligation for me to at least try to make friends, you know?
If only solving this social problem can be as elementary as solving an easy math problem.
If only..............
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